Confessions

My First Time Sucking Someone Off: The Trans Experience

 

I wasn’t entirely sure where to start my search since I don’t get out much, but I remembered a fun gay bar nearby where I might meet some cute trans girls. If I played my cards right, maybe they’d let me cuddle, steal a kiss, and, if I was lucky, admire their cute cocks.

Before heading out, I took a moment to check my outfit: a crisp button-up shirt, tight jeans, and some sleek leather boots. I felt like I looked good—and smelled good, too. My dating experience with people outside of CIS women was still pretty new, as I’d only recently started exploring my attraction to other gender identities. I was already a bit awkward as it was, and stepping into new spaces felt even more uncomfortable, like I didn’t quite belong or was intruding in some way. But I hoped my awkwardness would come off as endearing, and that someone might see me as a cute dork.

Anyway, I was gonna be brave.

When I finally made it to the bar, I stepped inside and grabbed a beer. It gave me something to sip on while I tried to signal to the world that I was single and ready to mingle. Prime dork material, right here. Come and get it!

As I scanned the crowd, I was caught off guard by a tap on my shoulder. “Oh, hey, John!” My friend had sneakily crept up behind me.

“What’s up? Out for some fun?” he asked.

“Yeah, something like that. Just seeing if there are any cuties who want some dorky company tonight.”

“Gotcha. I should introduce you to my friend, Jenny. She’s cute. A total sweetheart. Oh, and just so you know, she’s trans. Not sure what your dating goals are, but I never really see you with anyone,” he added with a laugh.

He wasn’t wrong. My love life was pretty nonexistent, and when it did exist, it was brief and under the radar.

“Yeah, I’d love to meet her,” I said, eager to start talking to someone. That was the whole point of coming out tonight, after all.

We wandered over to where Jenny was, and John made the introduction. “Jenny, this is my friend Jim. Jim, meet Jenny.”

I gave an awkward wave and a nervous smile, which she returned with one of her own.

“Hey.”

“Jenny’s a painter,” John said, kicking off the conversation. “She’s really good. You should check out some of her stuff—mostly watercolors.”

“That’s cool,” I said with a nervous laugh. “I have zero artistic ability, though.”

“That’s okay,” she replied. “I’ve been painting for years. I was terrible when I first started.”

And just like that, the conversation started flowing, a few stumbles here and there, but nothing major. John could tell we were hitting it off, so he quietly excused himself and disappeared into the crowd.

I was feeling a lot less nervous now. Jenny had a way of making me feel at ease, and her kindness made me feel like my awkwardness wasn’t something to hide. She seemed to appreciate that I wasn’t trying to be anything I wasn’t. We had a few more drinks, well, I had one, because I’m a lightweight, but the night sped by. Eventually, the moment came: do we go our separate ways, or do we take this somewhere else together?

We decided to leave together.

We strolled along the sidewalks, continuing our conversation and laughing more than I expected. I’m pretty sure the drinks helped loosen me up, making me less of a stiff, uptight guy.

As we waited at a stop sign, Jenny turned to me and said, “Hey, um, you seem really nice, and I was wondering… would you want to come back to my place for a bit?”

I hadn’t really expected to meet someone as cool as her tonight, let alone get invited back to her place. But, of course, I was all in.

“Yeah,” I said, trying to keep my cool, but internally, I was starting to sweat through my shirt.

“Cool,” she replied, before reaching out to grab my hand and guiding me down the street. I found myself trailing behind her, admiring how she looked in her cute, floral dress, the way it bounced around her legs as she walked. And I couldn’t help but wonder what she looked like without it.

My head was spinning a little. The alcohol had mostly worn off by this point, but the kiss and the heat building between us were still making me feel pleasantly off-balance.

“Do you wanna…” she said suggestively, trailing off without finishing the sentence. I nodded slightly, my face flushing.

She stood up first, taking my hand and guiding me toward her bedroom.

If the rest of her apartment had been cozy and well-decorated, her bedroom felt like a small slice of heaven. Maybe it was just the moment, or maybe it was my desire talking, but I could see myself spending hours in that room with her. Not necessarily doing anything specific, just lying together in bed, close, my fingers tracing the curves of her body. It felt like the kind of place where you could just be, without the need for anything more.

I glanced around for a moment, taking in the room, before she pulled me back to her, guiding me to sit beside her. I inched closer, my hand resting on her back, and leaned in for another kiss. This one was deeper, more intense, as she reclined, and I leaned over her, partly lying on top. We started kissing more urgently, our hands roaming over each other’s still-clothed bodies.

I needed to get my clothes off.

I stood up, unbuttoning my shirt slowly as she watched me, her eyes fixed on me while she stayed stretched out on the bed. I then unbuckled my pants, unzipped them and pulled them completely off. I stood there in nothing but my underwear. I kept my eyes on her as she lay there, silent, both of us lost in the moment, caught up in the unspoken tension.

She knelt up, turning her back to me. With her hands under her dress, she started to wiggle, then dropped to all fours, coaxing her underwear down and past her feet.

She turned to look at me, tossing them playfully in my direction and catching me right in the chest. I felt like a half-naked bridesmaid trying to catch the bouquet. She then lifted the hem of her skirt. Slowly revealing her now shaking tiny butt. But I was more focused on what hung between her legs: a beautiful cock.